I always felt a certain amount of guilt about the fantasies. Now I first met my wife when i was 20. We were engaged within a month. I mention this because I want to show just how much I adored her. I always liked women who were dominant and my wife wasn't, It was maybe 3 to 4 years later that a work collegue of ours suggested to her they have a match for my entertainment . It was made very obvious that the work collegue would win and that I would be the prize for the night.
When my wife told me about this, I had never seen her so turned on, and the sex that night was unlike anything we had experienced before. We didn't know it then, but my wife had a cuckquean fetish which is what had turned her on so much. Now even though she offered to actually do it, even against other women, we never did. We were together for 21 years before she passed away, and not once in any shared fantasy did she win. Im telling this story because I see a lot of reactions and judgement from people on this site who think that men who want to see there partner lose must do it out of some weird hatred. And that is simply not true. It has become increasingly common for couples to split up, or marry and get divorced. Me and my wife were together for that amount of time and never stopped loving each other and the FANTASY helped to keep things in the bedroom interesting. And as daft as it might sound, yes I still fantasize about it and yes I still feel guilty about it. And yes I do wonder what it would have been like to actually witness it in real life, but I strongly suspect that the FANTASY was better.