"MOM, WHAT DO I DO ?!?"
In the humid, ineffectively air-conditioned greenhouse conditions of my mother's decaying home, I toss and turn in my bed, sweat dripping off my upper torso. I slip in and in out sleep, vaguely terrifying nightmares haunting my subconscious. Do these nightmares foreshadow Bella hurting me in our catfight tomorrow morning?, I wonder.
Tomorrow morning. What time is it, anyways? A lot of light seems to be creeping under my shade. I go into my bathroom to look at the nearest clock.
7:37 ?!?!?@? Seven fucking thirty-seven

? I overslept for my fucking catfight? Sssshhhiiitt- I was supposed to meet Bella at 7.
I rush to my mother's bedroom in a panic, not even bothering to throw on a top. "Mom!!!! What do I do?!? I overslept for my fight with Bella!! She and Andrew probably think I chickened out!! What do I...."
My mom interrupts my meltdown: "You pull yer-self t'gether and you git yer-self over there, is what you do, hunny. Go! Git!"
Fuck. I'm going to have to fight without a shower. My hair looks like total shit. Fuck, I could never live in this house full time-- I'd look 24-going-on-45 all the time. Why can't my mom fucking maintain this house? Or find a man to maintain it for her? Has she been waiting for me to find that man? Is Andrew that man? Is that why Bella and Bella's mom are so worried about Andrew's grades? Are they counting on Andrew to take care of them?
Think, Nicole, think.
Bella said to wear a bathrobe to the fight, so that we can catfight nude. I strip off my panties and find my bathrobe in my closet. Fuck, my legs have so much stubble, this is going to be so fucking embarrassing fighting like this. Andrew will never want me. Fuck, should I shower anyways? What time is it? 7:52? Seven fucking fifty-two? How is time going by so fucking fast?
The fight should be over by now. Andrew and I should be in his bed, fucking. Him getting me pregnant.
I go out the front door, stepping into a pair of flip-flops, bare-naked under my lavender flannel bathrobe. There are no cars out, thank goodness--it's a holiday morning. I walk towards Bella's house. I sssoo want to fight. Arranging a fight is stupid, I decide. Two girls who want to fight should just fucking fight.
Those neighborhood touch football games were perfect. Every girl from the neighborhood is there. You just line up against the girl you have a problem with, or who has a problem with you, and you just start jabbing at or pinching her tits. You know what my problem was, all those years with Bella? It was TOO easy. I over-thought things. I didn't need to fight Bella after school. I woulda coulda shoulda fought her at one of those football games. Like the afternoon she pulled on my underboob. That was it. That was the day we should have fought.
So. Fucking. Easy. Why do I always overcomplicate things?
In the distance, I can hear a parade. The neighborhood Memorial Day celebrations are underway. The horns and drum sounds, and me in my bathrobe, nude underneath, remind me on Graduation Day, 6 years ago, in 2012. For two reasons. First, I spent all that day wondering if Bella and I would fight later that afternoon or night over the rumor I had spread about her being bi. (We didn't.) But second, some girls in our class supposedly went to the ceremony nude under their graduation gown. All of the boys in the class were staring at every girl's midsection, trying to guess which girls were nude underneath. I remember boys who never gave me any attention at all for four years staring at me intently for minutes. Why did they think I was one of the girls who would do that? Did I have a trashy reputation? Had Bella retaliated by spreading rumors about ME? Did they want me to be one of the nude girls, knowing I had 38c's? Were they hoping I'd flash them?
With all the catfight possibilities in the air, and all the furtive staring, it was the best day of my life.
What a fucking letdown the next 6 years were.
And then today. Catfighting is in the air again. And fucking. And Bella. Finally.
I'm in Bella's backyard now. No one's here. Fuck. I must be over an hour late. I hope I didn't fucking blow this. The chance of a lifetime.
I go to the backdoor. I jiggle the knob. The door opens.
I sneak thru the house. Maybe Abdrew is home. Maybe he and I can fuck. I've literally never been hornier.
I hear giggling and muffled breathing. Bedroom sounds. It's Andrew and Bella. Bella thinks I've surrendered Andrew to her. Stupid skank.
What room are they in? They're downstairs, in the finished basement. Fuck, the stairs are skinny and narrow. And loud. They can't hear me? What are they fucking doing?? Masturbating again?? Sick.
The finished basement is mildewy and humid, as bad as my mom's house. My hair is oily and flat. There's clothes and blankets all over the floor, with 1970s shag carpeting and old couches and beanbag chairs.
I turn the corner. Andrew and Bella are naked in a tiny 7ft by 7ft corner room, sitting on beanbag chairs, legs wide open watching each other finger themselves. Bella doesn't miss a beat.
"We were afraid you forgot about us, bitch."
"Bella, not only did I not forget. On the way over, I remembered. I remembered how fucking bad I've wanted to catfight you for Six. Fucking. Years." I remove my bathrobe, and show them my naked body.
"Then what are we waiting for, slut?"
I see red.
Bella and I lunge for each others' hair. Hers is clean and blow-dried, the exact opposite of mine. Her skin is soft and showered, the opposite of mine. Andrew has spent the last hour masturbating to the view and smell of it.
I need to fuck it up. To make it was sweaty and oily and ugly as mine.
I tear at Bella's breasts, like I should have at that coed football game.
Screeching echoes thru the tiny room, noise bouncing off the ancient walls.
We fall onto the clothes-filled floor in a heap, kicking violently.
This fight is just getting starting.
To be continued......