Addiction is such a prejorative word, and is often accompanied by devastating consequences (bankruptcy, severe health outcomes, loneliness, jail) far out of proportion to any pleasure available from the underlying vice and/or behavior.
The way I look at it is: it's a lifelong unbridled optimism, in the absence of any emprircal evidence (or, based on only the thinnest reed of empirical evidence), that a girlfight is going to break out TODAY between the two sexiest, friskiest women currently in your life (be it your worklife, personal life, or recreational life; even better if you're able to cross-pollinate between those domains), that the fight will be long and intense, and that it will incorporate a bewitching brew of clothing, setting, setup, and bitter trashtalk.
And that if said fantasy fight doesn't break out today, it will surely break out tomorrow.
Case in point:
1976--Sports Illustrated swimsuit edition. Cheryl Tiegs, in Mauritius, is the cover girl. 20-page or so spread. Surely one of the 20 will show her going toe to toe on the beach with another model, a local, a tourist MILF on the beach, a spring break coed--anyone pretty. Right?, RIGHT?
No? No problem. I'll just wait until.....
1977--Sports Illustrated swimsuit edition. Christie Brinkley in the Seychelles.
Then....
1978--Sports Illustrated swimsuit edition. Kathy Ireland in Jamaica.
Etc, etc. (All 3 of Cheryl, Christie, and Kathy are still alive and looking fighting fit. It still COULD happen. Even in 2022. Or 2023. Maybe versus each other. Or maybe picture evidence will surface that it DID already happen in 1977. Maybe that's how Christie WON the cover from Cheryl in the first place.)
Someimes, the 1 in 1,000,000 lottery ticket does hit. Sometimes Women's MMA does actually get invented and thrives and draws in 9.5-looks women athletes. Sometimes the college girlfriend and hometown girlfriend actually find out about each other--and decide to 'chat'. Sometimes, on an episode of The Fall Guy, Jody Banks actually tries to take in an attractive bail-runner who fights back. Sometimes a Chris Evert, getting reflective in life and facing her own mortality, reflects on women she had run-in's with in her prime and never got along with. Sometimes the two ex's/rivals figure out each others' married names, find each other on Facebook, and realize they live in driving distance. Sometimes the massage therapist drops a hint that she doesn't care for the new hair stylist next door, and wouldn't mind finding out who the better woman is some Friday after work.
But the new mornings never stop, the new possibilities never stop evolving and simmering.
And we all need a reason to get up every morning. THAT's never a bad thing. And never something to apologize for.
One final thought: the other day, a flyer came around from my favorite watering hole saying that it was starting $1-off Happy Hour bottled beers. I briefly thought it said $1 Happy Hour bottled beers, and felt 30 seconds of pure bliss.
I read closer, and was disappointed. Who cares about $1 off? But I got my 30 seconds of bliss. It was worth it.