I know a lot of people here like the idea of fighting much more than actually fighting. Some of you count a cyber fight as a fight because you get the satisfaction you want out of it. It’s not like that for me at all. I started fighting when I was a kid, in school, and I very fast realized that even when I hated the conflicts, I loved the fights. Eventually I started to love to conflicts as well, but only when they turned into physical confrontations. A bit later, next realization came. I’m addicted to fighting. It can’t be replaced by anything else. I can enjoy a cyber fight but it doesn’t, not even remotely, decreases my need to fight.
There’s something about the rivalry as well. I love building up the hate, I love fighting out of despite and jealousy. I have no idea why I’m like this. I just am. I need an enemy, I need a woman to be in war against me. Sometimes I see a woman I don’t even know and I wished we had a conflict. Can any of you relate to this? I would love to talk to someone who feels the same.