Hey everyone... I'm really sorry I didn't get around to posting the results to Saturday nights fight.
As some of you have figured out things didn't go especially well for me and I was defeated by Jenn 2-0 for the second night in a row. This means that she destroyed me over the course of the weekend like most of this site predicted, demolishing me in all 3 of the fighting types.
I will be posting what happened in the fights in the near future because I know you guys would probably like to hear how it went down, even though I lost. Everyone has been so supportive and I just want to thank you for all that you've contributed, so the least I can do is give you a report of what happened Saturday night. I'm sorry if I failed to give everyone the quality fights they were hoping for, but she was just too much for me and was clearly the better woman. It felt like their was absolutely nothing I could do, and like I was at her mercy the entire time. It was clear she was stronger and faster. I'm pretty sure any lack of technique didn't matter because neither of us had technique and I was outclassed in every other way.
Right now I'm just a complete wreck emotionally and still coming to terms with my devastating defeat. That's why I just can't recount to you exactly how it all happened yet. My wounds are too fresh in my mind to essentially relive how I was demolished on Saturday.
Overall, I'm really disappointed in my performance. I know I gave everything I had, but I'm just so embarrassed how in the end it wasn't even close to enough. I've been waiting to end this for a long time, to prove a point, that I was the better woman. Then to find yourself losing so badly, and then down and out so quickly, it's just embarrassing, you know? In your head you think you can put up a much better fight than what you did, but once you get out there and she's taking it to you and your hurt and beaten you come to realize that you're just moments away from being laid out on the floor. Losing becomes a question of when rather than if. That's when the shock sets in and the belief really begins to fade. It doesn't matter that you're the "good girl" and just trying to keep her away from your man. It doesn't matter how much you wanted to bear her. That doesn't count for anything, the only thing that matters is that you're being dominated by the same women that's tormented for years, and you know when she wins you won't be able to lie to yourself anymore. You'll know she's the better woman, even if you don't want to admit it.
I just feel completely defeated in every way. : (